I'm a fool spent from defiance.

"Turn Back Time"

If you turn back time
and tell yourself
just one thing
would you
stop yourself
from making that big mistake with what's his name

Would you
take the opportunity
to warn yourself against all guys
that will come along
in the next 3 years
and captivate you with their eyes

Well if I had
that ability
I know I'd go back
to when you and I
first met

It was a July night
you looked alright
and the moon lit up
the backyards and I
told jokes to impress you
yeah, I wanted to impress you

I would
turn back time
to go to that night
and convince myself
that it would be alright
for me to
lean in for that kiss
it would be just fine
it would be just fine

If you
could turn back time
what would you do
would you pass on
that chance or
would you choose
to

Tell yourself
it'll all be alright
in the future
you'll have a good life
would you be a better person
if you steered away from him

He got in between
the friendship
of you and me
that we
worked so hard to keep
as just friends

He got in between
in between, you and me
and he ruined everything

If you could
turn back time
would you back to the time
when we first met
or when we almost kissed
or the first day of
the rest of our lives

'Cause now I'm
at the altar
ready to alter my life
committing myself to my wife
something deep within me knows
it's not right
we make
eye contact
you're in the front row
imagine that
I read your eyes
like I've been practicing for years
I read your eyes
and they scream
what are we doing here

If we could
turn back time
what would we be doing now
if we could
turn back time
where would be right now
would we
have kissed
would i
have missed

If we could
turn back time
would you be in that dress now
If we could
turn back time
would you be in that dress now?

Illusion never changed into something real...

"Trapped in the Zone"

She would tell jokes
and I would laugh along
and she'd complain about a boy
and I'd help her out

I guess it's inevitable
I guess it just happens
I fell for that girl
that fell from the heavens

And I'd give everything
to make her smile
and to know that that smile was all mine

And here I am trapped
trapped in the zone
I've been here so long
that this place feels like home

She said I'm a great writer
and that I only get better with age
She said she hopes that our
friendship never fades

And that, friendship
is what gets in my way
sadly it's a common tale
it happens everyday

And I'd give everything
to make her smile
and to know that that smile was all mine

And here I am trapped
trapped in the zone
I've been here so long
that this place feels like home

Yeah, I'm trapped in the zone
yeah, yeah
I'm her comfort zone
Yeah, yeah
I'm trapped in the zone
Yeah, yeah
she said I make her feel at home

and I've accomplished my goal of that smile
but I know, that smile is not mine
And I've achieved
happiness at last
with an underlying emotion
only described as sad

Don't know how much time has passed, all I know is that it feels like forever...

A combination of feelings of late.

"Speed Dial 9"
or
"My Number"
or even
"Anymore"

Sideways glances
have never been thrown
from straight ahead
before

Notes have always
been perfectly folded
but with age, they get torn

And my number
sits in your phone
speed dial number 9
but you don't use it anymore
well, that's just fine

If you make no effort
then I won't either
there's just no point in wasting
time that could be better spent elsewhere

Passing each other
in the hallway everyday
The crowded sidewalk
just another meeting place

Of course there's excuses
and scornful looks on your face
and after all this time
it seems things are better left unsaid

My number
sits in your phone
speed dial number 9
but you don't use it anymore

So I just, I just won't bother
with notifying you of a change
So I just won't bother
and now I'll be on my way

Yes, yes yes
I'm
leaving you behind
as you walk away, into the future without me
Yes, yes yes
I'm
leaving you behind
as you walk ahead, into the future without me

I sent you my number
and told you you could contact me
anytime
I sent you my number
and you set it at speed dial 9
but you never use it
anymore, anymore, and that's just fine

It's been a long time since you've been around.

The meaning of this will be clear to nobody, honestly. So just take it at face value.

"Let's"

Let's do just fine
let's make time
let's just
see what the day brings us
let us
make our own resolutions oh

"how do you think of these things"
we ask each other that
with different reasonings
"oh, they just come to me"
we both reply
then we laugh
then we pray and then we
sing along
to whatever song is on, that we know

I can write a song if
you just give me a tune
you know, I wanna write something for you
Let's improvise these words
let's not worry 'bout chords
'cause with you
we'll do just fine
without them

Let's be safe friends
you know I want to stay friends
let's, laugh until the end

We've reached that point in time
when we fully realize
that we are not invulnerable
and we are not indestructible
and why are we worried about that

Let's do just fine
let's make time
let's just
see what the day brings us
let us
make our own resolutions oh

She was an American girl, raised on promises...

Cliche title, I know. Help me think of a better one? (Besides Moment Like This, please.) It's pretty obvious, the meaning.

"Growin' Up"

American Girl was playin' on the radio
as we laughed and began
to kiss these last 4 years goodbye
lookin' ahead to what we've got in front of us
it was right 'bout then, that we realized

There won't ever be another
moment quite like this
not another Friday night
not another football kiss
We'll be 30 somethin'
raisin' up kids of our own
lookin' back on all of this
my, how time has flown

Telling jokes at 3 am
studyin' for that big exam
alright, maybe not studyin'
but there was talk of some exam
and all of our old folks
told us not to let these years go
and we laughed it off
they're old, what do they know
and it was right 'bout then that we realized

There won't ever be another
moment like this
sittin' round on a back porch
playing cards and talking shit
We'll be 30 somethin'
raisin' up kids of our own
lookin' back on all of this
my, how time has flown

Yeah all of those songs' words
will start to make more sense to us
Petty and that one last dance
Seger's summer romance
As we looked out at the future
lookin' at what it might hold
that's when we all realized

It is funny how the night moves
and the older you'll get
the more you'll pay to roll the dice
we'll write songs
and namecheck artists
that our kids will never hear about 'cause

They'll be too busy
livin' up life
out every Friday night
stealin' a football kiss
and when they reach that grown up age
they'll realize
there ain't another moment like this

A dreamer dreams, she never dies.

About a great friend of mine.

"Back Up to You"

The best of times, the worst of times
times always seem better with you
I'm always here, we said to each other
"I will always help you"
But when the time came...

Let me down, yeah you let me down easy
Cliche and at the same time, uniquely you
Let me down, yeah you let me down easy
Now it's time, for me to get
back up to you

A happy upbeat tune
the background to our conversation
Tears falling, all around
I think it's just a tad bit exaggerated
When I said you needed a change
I didn't mean something that big
She said
When I said you needed a change
I didn't mean something that big

Let me down, yeah you let me down easy
a smile on your face as you broke my heart
Let me down, yeah you let me down easy
Now it's time, for me to get
Back up to you

Telling jokes and sharing all of our feelings
This is what a friendship is
My words are all old
yet you don't seem to mind
The best compliment a guy could ever get

You never, you never let me down
and I hope I do the same for you
I said, you never let me down
and I hope I do the same for you

And when I do, and when I do,
I hope you sing this tune

Let me down, yeah you let me down easy
an accident that you're trying to make up for
Let me down, yeah you let me down easy
Now it's time, for me to get
back up to you

Best friends means you get what you deserve.

Some events recently inspired this.

"False"

And there's no such thing as emo
Show me one, show me one
And there's no such thing as emo
Show me one, show me one

What I'd give to have my life be
something simple like Beverly Hills
90210, oh, no such thing, there's no such thing

What I'd give to keep my best friends
remain my best friend
no such thing
no such thing
no such thing
There's no such thing

This is goodbye
Cause I don't have what it takes
to keep all of you entertained
to keep making these mistakes
This is goodbye
I hope those pictures turn out great
They're the last thing
the last thing you'll remember me by

Yes I know everybody goes through these moments
and yes I know everybody feels like hell
Yes I know everybody says the same things
but this time I swear I'm seriously serious, oh

Stay with what you're going with
I can't get it out any better than
saying it straight up, saying it straight up
Stay with what you're going with
I can't do it any longer
I'm throwing in the towel cause
it's not what I thought it was

There's no such thing as keeping it real
and there's no such thing as being so chill
And there's no such thing as being fine
But there's no such thing as being a good friend,
of mine
friend, of mine
Frienemies, frienemies, the time has come to pick your side
I hope the picture turned out good
cause that's all you have to remember me by

He still found time to write to her his heart-exploding words.

Just a little song inspired by a lovely lady I know.

"17 Months(And You Haven't Complained Yet)"

Remember when you told me
lyrics don't make a good song
Well I'm not too good at the guitar
so that's all you'll get from moi

17 months
and you haven't complained yet
as trite as all my words can be
as cheesy as the lyrics get
17 months
and you haven't complained yet
my word choices are like you
there's others out there
but I choose the best bet

I'm inspired by all those
artists from years gone
I may namecheck them
but you're the subject of all my songs

17 months
and you haven't complained yet
okay, so you have
but we're still goin' at it
17 months
and you haven't complained yet
my word choices are like you
there's others out there
but I choose the best bet

I write you these all the time
you read them and smile
take them home
put 'em in an Avon bag
'cause baby that's your style

17 months
and you haven't complained yet
like Green Day said
it was worth all the while
17 months
and you haven't complained yet
my word choices are like you
there's others out there
but I choose the best bet